Friday, December 01, 2006

tis' the season to be selfish

I'm getting the gasp!-it's-the-end-of-the-year-already??-feeling
It's about time anyway...

I woke up yesterday, and realized it'sDecember!
Crap of the Craps....

I love December because :
  1. ...it's the holidays
  2. ...SALE! SALE! SALE! BUY! BUY! BUY!
  3. ...everyone comes home & we are all together
  4. ...my birthday is closer & closer
  5. ...of Christmas, of course
But I also don't quite like December because :
  1. ...I never know what December feels like
  2. ...it's supposed to be the best of the 12months, but it speeds by in the wink of an eye. I promise you, December is the fastest month of all!
  3. ...I'm usually too up to my neck in preparations for Christmas that I don't get to kick back, relax and enjoy the jolly-ness of the season
  4. ...I know I will be broke, come January
  5. ...I know a new year is starting, and it scares me to think of the uncertain road that I will treading. When you step into the a new year, the confidence you had in the previous year doesn't seem so valid anymore. Well, to me at least.
  6. ...I know everyone will go back soon, the holidays will end soon, and everything that was put off, will now resume.
I always get so nostalgic, and emotional in December.
I'm always too reluctant to move into a new year.
Maybe because I feel I haven't given my all to this year.
But like we all know too well, time waits for no man.
I wish it was man waits for no time instead, which sounds really stupid.
But! If you are clever, you would get it. And I get it. Haha.

So this year, I've become more clever.
With cleverness comes, selfishness. I want to put everything away, and have this December for myself! I want to smell the fresh air of December, and see the December moon, I want to feel the December wind tingling against my skin. I want to catch the sands of time in my hand, and savour every moment. I want to know what December means.
Is it the beginning, or the end?

SO please don't call me [except for shopping/recreation *wink*], don't ask me to do anything for you, don't make me feel obligated, don't disturb me. I want to be selfish this December.

Thankieewwwww....

posted by lisathetan @ 9:24 PM

2 Comments:

At 6:03 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

omg was browsing around and i found your blog!how have u been?btw it's phaikwah here,heh not sure if you remember me though :)

 
At 11:32 AM, Blogger lisathetan said...

HEY!!! PIGGY!!! of course i remeber u lah!! ive been good! hey, add me on msn lisathetan@hotmail.com will be great to catch up!

 

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