the tan's of lisa

My Bucket List

"I don't want to die from cancer. Anything but cancer"
She said to me, as she stared into nothingness.
"I want to die peacefully in my sleep"

We were in the car, the mood sombre.
I quietly drove back.
I'm twenty two, why do I have to think about dying?
I'm immortal. Aren't I?

Coincidentally, I watched The Bucket List - a story of 2 aged men with 6months to live because of TheCancer.

To make the most out of their days, they draw up a 'Kick the Bucket List' with things like
'Go skydiving',
'Laugh until I cry',
'Witness something truly majestic'....
They promise each other to fulfill the entire list.

I was so touched by the movie.
It's the kind that lingers in your thoughts for hours to come.

But for a moment, I was gripped by fear.
What if I got Cancer?
What if I had 6months?
Would I be able to endure the chemo?
What would I do?


My life began racing before my very eyes.
Junk Food, MSG, Over-using my Cell Phone, Frozen foods, Not exercising, Not eating vitamins, Not eating organic
ARGH!
Am I making myself a Prime Candidate?

My mind & body temporarily froze. I am not immortal.
I could die young & unfulfilled.
A horrible death, with my eyes still open and all.


And then I realized that dying is only tragic if you haven't lived your life.
My Life is Now.

I don't have to be dying to have a Bucket List.
I should start now.
And when I've reached the end of my list, it will be time to die.
And it wouldn't matter to me how I died
With my eyes open or closed


My Bucket List :
1. Be a friend to someone lonely.
2. Take my bicycle for a ride.
3. Bake cookies for someone.



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posted by lisathetan @ 11:01 PM